A day in my dreams. Forever in my night terrors.

I am sitting at Starbucks.

It’s not so bad, the whole being single. I miss her. A lot. The thought of her being with someone still churns my stomach but knowing that I did all I could to save “us” gives me some peace. I think less and less of her and I dont know if its good or bad. Life is moving on and I hope she’s doing okay. I feel like I have no one to share my thoughts and day with, it kinda blows but its all good. I have good friends. They always know when I need someone and someone is always there. I feel like a better person. Not because I’m without her, but because I’ve slowed down my life. Im not worried about things as much and that makes me feel a lot better. There are no more night terrors, no sleepless nights. I wake up at 5 and pray and start my day. I dont goto bed till 1-2am and then start all over again. I’m physical exhausted but I like it. This way I keep my mind occupied. I feel like I have new goals now and its something I really want to work towards. I made huge moves business wise. I aced my first exam. I feel like I am meeting the expectations that I set for my self. I feel like a new person, like things are gonna be very different for me from now on. I hope all reading this are doing great. I feel at peace with myself. Its kinda nice just sitting back and letting life show me whats in store.